I was starting classes required to get into social work because I wanted to get in to child protective services but when I started to learn so much about the under belly I basically just withdrew..I couldn’t believe how hard it is to get a child like her out of the clutches of monsters and that I know in my heart I can’t live with.

This just never should have happened.

He probably told Nixzaliz the same for the same reasons.

Since this post has been on here I have spent days doing nothing but reading about this case, and I am horrified despite my training (going into my fourth year as a Justice Major with an emphasis on Victims).

My understanding is that they did a rape kit on her post-mortem and found evidence of oral (at least) sodomy. Why they didn’t charge him for it I will never know since they did all that DNA work on all the other items.

I really respect Dovesblood for the work she has done to bring this case to light and the fact that she advocates for Nixzmary as if it WERE her child. (She is the one that did the myspace and another site where she chronicled the trials).

I have a lot to say about this case and my words seem so weak.

If I had a chance to have helped this child I would have given anything to do just that.

More to come. . .

I read somewhere Cesar was dunking her head repeatedly under the tubs faucet and hit her head on the spicket every time her pulled her head back..I think that maybe where the neck bruises came from.. When I regain my composure I will try to find out.

I dunno but it’s despicable to say the least.

When I stumbled on those pictures I thought “could that really be Nixamary??” I was so horrified I looked at her story again and really hoped it wasn’t her but it all matched..the marks on her ankle’s, blackened eyes, scab on her chin, the gash on her forehead, etc.. I then just sat and cried for a very long time. I can hear “Mommy, mommy, don’t leave me.” over and over in my head.

Her Mother seen her and left her for two hour on the floor cold and naked before bothering to come back. when she returned she haphazardly clothed and bathed her and little Nixamary begged her to stay but she went to bed with that creep Cesar instead of comforting her dying child.

There is no doubt in my mind that Nixamary looked just as she did in those autopsy photos when she left her there cold and shivering. What kind of monster could look at her and hear her say “Mommy please don’t leave me” and simply go her own bed to sleep?

This story would have enraged me before I was a parent but now that I have a child of my own, the anger I feel and boiling of my blood in my veins, what word and I say? there is no word to describe my inner fury at this woman.

As a Mother how could she not love and protect her little girl? what happened to her basic animal instinct even to protect her young?
Nixamarys cell as it were had nothing but junk and torture devices for her while the other children in the home had fresh clothes and toys to play with; Why was Nixamary singled out for this incomprehensible abuse?

These are the questions in my mind but no matter what the answer could be nothing would justify they’re purely sinister evil deeds put upon this child.

** Mr. Rodriguez said that often after a beating, he would hold her up to a mirror and urge her that it was easier to just behave.
** “I would say: ‘Talk to yourself, how do you feel about yourself now? Do you really want to live like this?’ ” he said. “She would say no.”

He would hold her up to a mirror..my god what must that have been like??..

I am in tears – RIP Nixamary you’ll always be loved.